When I get quiet with the Lord, I often feel like crying. I have learned through the years that there are many of different sources for my tears. And I've learned by asking and sitting with Him asking, what is this?
This particular morning was another one of those mornings where I was asking “why this morning? Why again?” That was how I started my journal.
I feel like weeping, again. What is it this time?
You are feeling behind with no hope of catching up or making the right choices.
There are many things to do. I was leaving in a week. I need to do to prepare my home, family, and business for being gone for a week and the transition time when I return. Then there are all the things that I feel like I'm behind on in my house and for my family.
What do I do then? This isn't true. This isn't a place I can function from either.
Go back to your values and your priorities.
Decide what you will do.
One morning when I had my quiet time, I recognized that I was feeling selfish.
I was getting ready to leave for coaching training in Florida. Leaving Alaska in winter for some Florida sunshine sounds so appealing. I'm excited for the training to improve my coaching and follow where I feel like God is leading me to go with my coaching.
I felt very clearly that God told me I was supposed to go to this training. It is stretching because one of my first thoughts was, “I don't belong there. I don't know that You've called the right person to do these big things. I’m not like them.” Part of why I am going is to overcome these fears and break out of the mold of how I see myself. I must be able to see myself as God sees me.
But this morning I was feeling selfish. I booked my tickets so I would be at my best for the training. I have a day of downtime before and after. I was feeling selfish because it means somebody needs...
Emotions are involuntary, like blinking your eyes when something comes at our face. Something happens and we have an emotional reaction. We then choose how to respond to the emotion we feel but the initial feeling is involuntary. Those involuntary emotions have messages for us.
We're going to be angry and feel other emotions we don't want to feel. The responsibility comes in how we respond because of how we feel. What do we choose to do with how we feel?
What am I feeling?
What emotions can I name?
Use an emotions word list or chart with faces and pictures if you need to.
What could these emotions do for me?
What are the messages?
Some of the messages will reveal lies or wounds that need to be worked through and healed. The message may be, this is new. I need to learn this. I don't know what this looks like.
That might seem like common sense, but would the Lord told it to me last week, it was a freeing revelation.
I was trying to make twenty plus quarts of salsa, edit my book, and all the normal responsibilities of life. I was frustrated trying to figure out how to get it all done.
The idea of needing a container or a space for everything made perfect sense. I hope the idea helps you, too.
Tasks have at least three containers; time, energy, and focus.
How much time do you need and when are you going to take that time? I neglected to accurately figure out how much time the salsa would take. Editing, too. This made my week too full. The time containers were full. Overfull.
How much energy does a task take? Trying to but a high energy task at the end of a long day is going to be hard and likely frustrating, especially if you didn’t think about the energy it will take.
What I feel is bad. I don’t know what to do with it. I should be able to stop feeling this way because these feelings aren’t helpful.
Our other senses give us valuable information about our physical world, emotions give us valuable feedback about our relationships - with God, yourself and others. We would never wish to stop seeing or hearing, why do we wish to stop feeling?
Because we don't know how to hear the messages they have for us.
How does your body feel? How are you breathing? Where is there peace? Where is there stress? Where is it coming from?
If you want help you can use a list of emotions to get you started. Name as many emotions and reasons for them as you can.
Once you know where the emotions are coming from and what they are called you can ask what the emotions are trying to tell you. Is there someone you need to...
I can’t begin to count how many times I’ve asked- yelled, this to myself. So miserable and so desperate to not feel that way.
Why do I feel I’m never enough?
I absorbed the feeling from my childhood of not being good enough. No one told me I wasn’t good enough, but I felt it all the time.
I decided results fell into two categories, Perfect and Failure. I also picked up the lie that I was my behavior. Therefore I fell into those two categories as well.
I’ve recently seen that Perfect was never defined. If it wasn’t defined I could never know if I achieved it. Therefore I was always a failure. Always.
Excellence was held up as the standard but it was code for Perfect. There was also a strange sense of being no learning curve. I thought I was just supposed to be able to do something and of course, do it perfectly.
Totally unattainable, totally below the...
God highlighted to me seven key areas that are vital to transformation. They are part of my journey and what I'm passionate about passing on. This is an introduction. For the next seven weeks, I will go deeper on each key.
It's more than saying Jesus is my Savior. We have a triune God. We have the Father, the Son - our Savior, and we have the Holy Spirit. How well do you know each one of them? How do you interact with each one of them? What are the things that have affected how you see them and how you relate to them?
Those things are all crucial toward transformation because if you don't see God clearly, you don't see anything else could be either.
The primary way that you hear God is from scripture, the Bible. Every secondary way that you hear from Him has to agree with that bottom line. That being said, there are tons and tons of ways He speaks. He has a lot to say, and He's willing to be incredibly creative and how He does that.
Since there will be trouble, (Jesus promised there would be until He returns) why not prepare?
Prepare by expecting it. I don’t mean being doom and gloom always expecting everything to go wrong. God is with us and has good plans for us. He also warned us we have an enemy who is always looking to steal, kill, and destroy, so we should be ready.
I often said I house-proofed my children rather than child-proofing my house. They learned boundaries and self-control from a young age. I prepared them to avoid the dangers and trouble that were in their world. I could take them anywhere I wanted to and let them know the boundaries. We weren’t restricted to childproofed spaces.
In much the same way, I can’t send my children into a struggle-free world. Instead, I’m doing my best to give them skills and tools to avoid the dangers and overcome the struggles. Even learn to use trouble to benefit them. My job is not to keep struggle out of their life. Do I teach them to...
Things aren’t coming together the way I imagined so I’m sharing a video this week.
I’ll outline the highlights:
An emotion comes like blinking your eye when something comes at your face. Then you choose what to believe and how to behave.
Things are different now whether we wanted them to be or not
What’s important? What’s not?
We didn’t lose any people
My family woke up with carbon monoxide poisoning
What went well this year?
What are His highlights of 2018?
What is it He wants to heal, restore, or build in 2019?
Where is it that I need help in 2019?...