This video was recorded on Monday with Mukkove, a weekly feature in the Ready. Set. SOAR! Community on Facebook.
I felt like I failed all the time and I was miserable. And it didn't matter how hard I tried. It didn't work. Other people would come from a conference or read a book and say, ”This was life-changing! Just do this.” I would try to do that and it just wouldn't work. It just would convince me, “It's me. I'm severely broken. I'm severely messed up, severely flawed.”
I wanted to be pleasing to the Lord and wanted to be impacting people for the Lord. Trying harder was not working.
When I learned to hear God's voice for myself, I began to be able to see myself the way God sees me. That allowed Him to transform me through transforming my thinking instead of me trying to transform my thinking without having that...
Becoming a mom was the most amazing end overwhelming thing in my life - all four times.
We teach what we know, but we reproduced who we are. John Maxwell
The truth of this quote terrified me because I did not want anyone to be like me. I was so insecure. I had so much self-hatred. I did not like myself and I didn't understand how anyone else would like me. I did not want to reproduce that ever. So, knowing I would reproduce who I was, terrified me.
We cannot always build the future for our youth, but we can build our youth for the future. Franklin D. Roosevelt
This quote embodies the philosophy that I took out of that terrifying realization. It became my passion as a mom to become someone I wanted my children to be like. I worked with the Lord to be transformed into His image - from glory to glory. And as I did that, I learned tools and I modeled the process to my children, to build their foundations and build them for the future.
We're in a time no one...
I’m an emotional wreck. I can’t think. I can’t hold back the tears and this intense ache.
A clear thought breaks through the suffocating emotion.
This hurts way more than it should. This is just normal teen stuff. They want to be with their friends. It’s a really busy season.
Why is it hurting so bad? What is it I’m really feeling?
I’m feeling SO rejected!
Rejection and I go way back. Way, way back. That’s why this hurts so bad. It’s time to heal.
I’m feeling pressure, stress, from other’s choices. I feel rejected. A crazy thing about feelings is I can feel rejection without ever having been rejected. This isn’t about blaming or figuring out who rejected me. It’s about me examining the wound with the Lord and receiving His healing so I can deal with current events as just that – current, present – not clouded and confused by past wounds.
Looking at pressure like the lobster, it’s time to grow....
Do you struggle with wanting to be prefect? To do everything right?
I do! Especially when it comes to my kids. I mean, why should they have to suffer because I’m their mom and I’m not perfect?
Making mistakes is inevitable. So, it’s not the making of mistakes that is the issue. It’s what I do with my mistakes that has the biggest impact on my children.
I serve the God who specializes in bringing beauty from ashes. God showed me He wanted to use my mistakes to bless my children, too.
Whether I hurt my child, or they know I hurt someone else, they can benefit if they also see me clean up my mess.
I can make a full apology, “I’m sorry” doesn’t cut it.
Regret isn’t something I’ve given too much thought until recently. I read a word from Lana Vawser that said God was taking bags of regret off of mothers. The bags of regret or lightened as the lies were revealed and made holes in the bags.
I realized I have many regrets as a mother. And events this week have made them come very much to the forefront.